lucie shoddy: Relationships and Marriage: Married 31 yr's...now seperated

Sunday, August 19, 2012

Teaching Bible study, active in missions, encouraging others, attending church, writing christian articles online....

AM I IMMUNE TO ATTACK??? No

In the past 3 years we have lost two homes, jobs and now I sit and type this alone.

Yesterday my husband took a suitcase and left, he called our youngest son to pick him up.

At almost 60, I work at a difficult job.? He is alone in the apartment we rent.? We barely pay

our bills and need to conserve gas.?? After losing his job 2 yr's ago we lost our home, we

then moved to a small home we had just got a mortgage on as a retirement home.? You see,

we were going to sell you home and with the funds pay for the small retirement home and be

able to live on social security while getting involved with short term missions.

So the plan was to go, until the bottom fell out.

We were taught our home was our best investment.

So we followed our parents example but that did not work, did it?

So here I am, two short sales, working twice as hard as I did 30 yr's ago, physically trying

to makea it through each day, and now seperated.

Each day we discussed "how" and "what" to manage through the next month.

Yes, I am overwhelmed.? He is stressed.? He does spend time in the Word.? We know how

important it is to draw close to Him in this time.?

I search daily for rent to own homes, since at our age if something were to happen to either

of us I could not pay the rent.

Our grown children have turned us down to sign for a loan of $25,000 for us. We can pay for a

mortgage quite easily on social security for that amount. Yes, there are homes here selling for

that amount.

So I am overwhelmed with disappointment, seperation and disbelief and how all this is happening.

I know nothing happens in our life that does not pass by His eyes first,? what now?

I am physically and emotionally tired.? So is my husband.??

I always wanted to go off and serve with missions, and maybe God is pushing us this way?

I do not mind selling all my possessions and going!

My husband refuses.

I am ready to have a garage sale and go on my own.

Help...

Sister In Christ who is try to dodge the darts of the devil daily and getting tired.

lucie shoddy